Overwhelmed

I've had a very interesting week.  My son and his girlfriend broke up.  The wolf moved out.  I started my period 9 days late and barely noticed I was having it.  I watched a movie called P.S. I Love You and thought there couldn't possibly be a sadder movie ever made.  I read this post by Stacie and completely lost it.  I'm an emotional wreck because of all the above things.  Stacie's post was the straw that broke the camel's back.  I feel like I'll be crying for the next week.  Do you think they will notice at work if I'm a blubbering idiot?  Do you think when I answer the phone all dripping with snot and tears the person on the other end will hang up because they think they have the wrong number, causing us to lose business?

Stacie did something amazing.  Something that most people would never have the desire to do.  I don't want to run a marathon.  But I would like to set a goal, train or work toward that goal and achieve it.  I don't know Stacie except through her blog.  I don't know why this accomplishment of hers has moved me so much.  I'm so proud of her hard work and determination.  If you haven't clicked on that link and read her account of running a marathon go do it now.  I'll wait! I know it's long, but it's so worth the read!

I'm overwhelmed by all the changes going on around me this week (I wish one of those changes was spring, but that's not happening yet).  I'm sure most of my strong emotions are a result of this pain in the ass menopause I seem to be knee deep in.  The biggest change of all is going on in my own body.  I'm thinking I might as well add one more change to it.  As much as I hate to say this, as much as I hate to do this, I'm going to commit to exercising.  GAH!  Did I just write that out loud?  I know that exercise will help with all kinds of things that are currently ailing me.  It will help with this funk I'm in.  It will help with this stupid shitty menopause that I have to go through.  It will help with the weight loss that needs to happen before my whole body shuts down.

I'm a very healthy overweight person.  Good cholesterol, no diabetes, no high blood pressure, no medications, I rarely get sick.  I know this can't last.  For some time now a voice in the back of by head has been saying, "Get off your ass and move!"  I've been very successfully ignoring that voice.

Stacie has motivated me to listen to that voice.

I'll keep you posted.

Comments

[noble pig]

Oh man sorry for all the stress. It can be overwhelming. Keep breathing and uh...wine should/could help.

[Mental P Mama]

Good for you! Since I started training for a half-marathon, I have never felt better. Well, except for my knees;) But even that reminds of of my determination! You can do it!

[The Incredible Woody]

Good for you - sticking with exercise can be a bitch! I'll pester you if you'll pester me...

[Meg]

Too bad about the stress. Good luck good luck good luck with the excercise. Training for a run is really the best motivator. Especially if you register for the run...you gotta keep training for it otherwise you've wasted all that money on your registration fee.

[♥Tracey♥]

:0) Sometimes it takes a touching story to grab your attention. I ran my marathon in 2005. I was so darn proud of myself because my own father told me I was stupid for even trying. That was my motivation. I cried when I crossed the finish line because I proved to him and myself that not only was I not stupid, but I could accomplish what I put my mind to.

[JWinters]

I wish we had our island weekend sooner. I don't have the same issues but it's been a tough time for me too, some talking would be good. Hang in there sweetie.

[Daryl]

I hope you stick to it and do it... menopause is the beginning of many body/hormonal changes .. losing weight helps .. most important of all is to BREATHE .. and try to let the stress go .. walk .. throw a ball against the wall .. do you have a shredder in your office? Shred a bunch of paper and while you do it think of all the crap you'd like to let go of and think of it as the paper shreds .. it works for me .. tho I did notice a few co-workers backing out of the copy room when they saw/heard me shredding ... ummmmm

[Jenn @ Juggling Life]

The exercise will help for sure. My friends that are peri-menopausal or menopausal swear by the "biodentical" hormone creams specially compounded. Very low dose hormones, but apparently effective. It might be something to look into.